D ) Dear Diary

Grandpa's Lake Resort, San Moritz (72.5937,176.155,22.8729)

Dear Diary. I think I have issues. I enjoy things none of my friends do.

I like men that enjoy showing me off, that make me dress like a whore, and that like treating me like a slut

Why do I get turned on when a man threatens me, hits me or calls me demeaning names

Why do I secretly enjoy it when they make me watch degrading rough porn, take photos while they use me or make me wear their cum on my face?

At my last porn shot, the director made me do.....things.... but all the crew were jerking off while they watched

Is it nomal to let a man make a girl feel stupid, below him or treat me like his toy?

I haven't seen my ex since we broke up
Probably 'cause he didn't wanna grow up
Now I'm out and wearing something low-cut
'Bout to get attention from a grown-up
Guys my age don't know how to treat me
Guys my age don't know how to touch me
Don't know how to love me good